I recently had a teddy bear given to me by my girlfriend. As a child I never had teddybears, plushies or anything like that so have never been attached to them or saw much appeal. I remember having a friend who had a teddybear with him all the time and I thought it was rather dumb (This was when I was 6 or 7 years old mind you)
But over the past few weeks since she's given me this bear, I've gradually discovered this part of me that feels so warm and safe whenever he's with me. It's gradually gotten to the point where he sits with me when I watch T.V and even sleeps with me a lot of the time. I feel a bit like he's an actual friend. I've found this so weird because usually when I'm big, I temporarily lose all interest in my Little things. I generally have a strong personality as a big and feel pretty masculine around my girlfriend, friends and colleagues.. I also have a lot of other things in my life that I'm always preoccupied with which takes my mind off it completely so my desire to feel little goes away.
Also, although my girlfriend loves my little side, she loves my adult/masculine side much more, so sometimes I try not to let my little behaviours leak over to my adult side. I've felt a bit bad wanting to sleep with my bear and keep him with me a lot because I feel it has changed who I thought I was a little bit and I think about where it will go from here... Is this something anybody else has experienced or can identify with?