EllieMarieBinx
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Is it strange that I detest looking at pictures of myself from my childhood or pictures of myself without any feminine clothing on? Or that I have taken down any photographs of myself during childhood AND made an effort to suppress any further photographing of myself (like graduation pictures and such?). Whenever I look at them I just feel this sense of dread and disdain. I know, they're just pictures, but to me they're a missing piece of myself that I will never get back. I remember how painful it was to have to sift through pictures of myself to prepare a slideshow for my own graduation party. Looking at the little boy as an adult woman who, despite never transitioning, knows that the person in the picture just doesn't reflect her. These feelings are pretty trivial, and I know they are, but they exist. Do any of you feel something psychological like that, or am I a minority?