I'm having a really hard time dealing with a recent breakup with my girlfriend. Like really really hard time. One week we were on vacation and the next she's telling me she isn't happy anymore - it's devastating - no it's actually worse...
I'm so sick of feeling like people are giving me mixed signals or judging me based on my decisions. I want to feel like I am doing things for myself but now I feel like everything I am doing is continuing to screw everything up.
My girlfriend told me she wanted me to start standing up for myself and make changes. I joined a gym, and distanced myself from my parents (who are a huge source of conflict in my life). These are just two changes out of many, but since doing these things she has gotten MORE distant toward me - and now she's left.
I don't understand how any of these things can be connected. It's otterley agonizing. A lot of this I've done to myself (isolate myself) but it doesn't help when you feel lost in your own head. It's just actually downright depressing knowing there's no on who can actually understand what I'm going through. I feel so trapped.