My entire world is crumbling around me and there's nothing I want to do more than be little but I'm terrified. I'm scared if I even admit that to anyone (IRL) they'll send me to a hospital. Part of me wonders if I should go to the hospital if I'm dealing with this much fear and anxiety coupled with my strong desires to regress.
I've been told I suffer from flashbacks. There's no part of me that wants to keep moving forward considering I've lost every outlet of love I possibly had. I just want to suck my thumb and color. I want to feel loved. I want to give someone a real hug and not let go. I want to be happy.