Hi. I just wanted to apologize to the community for avoiding you all, and not posting for several weeks. I've been through a recent period of shaming and denying my identity as an Incontinent/DL, and as a result, I purged by anonymizing as much as possible all my profiles on three AB/DL websites, including this one.
I felt ashamed of myself. I didn't think that I deserved to enjoy wearing diapers, because I am supposed to have urge and overflow incontinence due to diabetic neuropathy affecting my bladder. I questioned for the "nth" time whether or not I was truly incontinent, or I was just fooling myself into thinking I was. I have had whole days in a row in which I didn't wear a diaper or pad at all.
Last night, I made a very bold move. I posted on a gay dating site, and I was very clear that I am incontinent, that I wear diapers, and I identify with the AB/DL community. I even posted a picture of me wearing a diaper. I figured I had a trillion to one chance of finding anyone who would be attracted to me without being repulsed by my diapers, incontinence, or interest and enjoyment of wearing diapers.
I was surprised when I received a message shortly after posting my profile last night. It was followed up by a series of e-mails, then a couple of phone calls this morning. They were from an older man who lives about 50 miles away from me. If everything he has told me thus far in his e-mails is true, then he just might be that 1000 to 1 chance that I want and need so very much.
I am going to keep communicating with this person. He even wants to meet me in person very soon. I promised myself that I will be very careful about my safety, since he is still a stranger to me. However, the possibility that he could be the right match for me is at once tantalizing and intriguing. It seems he was not in any way turned off by anything I had put in my profile.
I have gone ahead and filled out my profile here at ADISC again. Has anyone else here gone through shaming themselves, and hiding their identities as an AB or DL? How do you cope with the emotions and the stress of it all? I would appreciate your comments and advice. I promise I will try and stay active here, as you all have been so kind and supportive to me in the past. Thanks again. Take care, and be safe.