Hey everybody, it's been a while. I figure a lot of you don't know who I am or don't remember me. Anyways, I'll get down to it.
I'm in a relationship with my girlfriend Grace. She's absolutely amazing, I am so happy to have her, truly, being with her feels so right. We have the same interests pretty much down to the smallest thing. A lot of the time we'll watch TV together and play games together, and she's just fantastic to me, she does so much for me and I make sure I do the same for her every time I get the chance. She's known I'm a Little for quite some time now and none of this is sexual for me and my Little needs are somewhat minuscule truthfully, just cuddling and minor things make me so happy in that way, in the past my little was neglected as most of us I imagine encounter at times. So I learned to live with the smaller things and just not ask so much, which really, I never wanted much to begin with. Well, she's 'mommy' and I really have trouble even coming to terms with that honestly. It's complicated. I didn't have a great relationship with my mother as a kid so that kind of thing is very... eggshells, I guess? I was too honest about things, I told her that I liked the idea of having a mommy because we're just so open, and she pushes to do it for me, and I just feel so bad for her even doing it for 15 minutes. I will sit there and count the clock and I won't let a second more pass. It's nice but it's more draining than anything to feel so bad coming out the other end of that tunnel. I've approached her about it and she understands, she knows my childhood wasn't amazing, and I assured her it had nothing to do with her. Anyways, I've tried to slowly progress with Little time, and I can do it solo for hours on end and feel great, but its' meaningfulness is limited compared to what I feel a relationship with another in this could reach. Ultimately, I'm asking about any tips to sort of break those barriers and get through to the more vulnerable areas. Sorry for all of the tangents, I hope you all are doing absolutely fantastic and thank you so much in advance.