First, I apologize if this post is a bit fragmented.
I have not eaten in 4 days. I understand that by all rights my body should be screaming for nourishment by now, if only my nervous system would admit such. I don't feel it. The very thought of anything edible makes me want to vomit.
I know this is emotional in nature. When I am not in psychological duress, I eat very well. I have been diagnosed with "functional dyspepsia" which is, so far as I can tell, the subconscious analog of classical anorexia. My body is refusing the food moreso than I am by any conscious decision. I keep buying food, I just can't bring myself to eat it, and it will likely make me sick if I do. It's tiring to constantly force the issue.
I seem to be unusual in this respect. I do not have issues with body image or etc, at least moreso than the average transperson who dislikes their gender-specific anatomy. I don't "think I'm fat" or anything of the sort. Rather, I understand perhaps slightly too well that physical nourishment sustains me in my present adverse environment, and as such may only be considered "nourishment" in a very short-term, limited sense. Ultimately it leads to more abuse, so ultimately it is a kind of poison. My body understands this. That is the problem.
Has anyone on ADISC dealt with such issues before?
P.S. Before anyone recommends contacting a professional, I already have. They're stumped. What's next?