I for a long time now have suspected that there may be something wrong in my brain. There's something... some obstacle that keeps me from remaining motivated, focused, and being able to retain and repeat certain information. I have to graduate this year from high school (I'm 19) in order for it to look normal. I've been doing a homescooling thing but lately my tutors have had a lot of things to deal with and can't always be around. They are with me when I say there is something physical going on that is disrupting my ability to focus and remain motivated to do work. I'm by no means 'lazy' or 'not a good worker' because I actually work very hard. The majority of people I know agree that I am an intelligent young man, but there's something holding me back. Money is a concern... but hopefully I will be able to figure out what's going on. Any and all advice would be appreciated. I have normal mental health, but something is just there not letting me quite get where I want to be.