So lately I've been thinking about getting back into shape by running; I have to be fit for my job :P I was thinking while talking today with my gf that maybe I might want to get into lifting weights again like I used to a few years ago. The problem is, when I imagine a decently built me, it doesn't feel like it would jive well with my AB side. I only in the last 1.5 years realized I'm also AB and not just DL and I was wondering how it would feel to be muscular and still want to play baby? Back when I was a lifter I didn't think twice because I wanted to be a macho man, but I'm a much more sensitive and even somewhat feminine guy now.
I just feel like I'd be trying to be a "tough guy" again, while deep down I'd still be infant-like as I am now.
Does anybody else feel this way? I'll admit that I had to retype this twice because even I was having trouble finding a problem and understanding why it bothered me. But have any of you ever avoided something when being an AB became part of your identity (or at least a bigger part for those of you who have always known)?
I guess I'm afraid that if I put on a diaper one day I'll think to myself, "man this just isn't me anymore". I just don't want to be astranged to my current identity since I feel like being AB/DL is a plus in my life.
Sorry I'm ranting! This was kinda hard to describe in words for some reason lol! Maybe that's a good thing haha!
Thanks in advance as I eagerly await your responses!