Good evening fine ADISC folks!
I am writing tonight to seek your advice about something that has weighed heavily on me for some time now. I'm looking for serious assistance here so any help you can provide is greatly appreciated.
With that I will jump right in:
I've always felt that I have an AB side. Years ago when I started to find my ABDL sense of being, I considered myself a hardcore DL. But like most people, my interests became malleable over time and I found myself breaking down my ABDL profile to include a DL portion, an AB portion, and a fur portion.
I have met and have some wonderful IRL ABDL friends that I wouldn't trade for anything. They are all so different in their own rights (as I'm sure most of us are, being such a small community in this world) and that is great. They have helped me to open up new doors in my ABDL profile. Most notably I've found myself becoming more AB in the last few years. To illustrate this, I've bought items such as bottles, pacis, a sleeper, and a onesie. Most of the time when I'm indulging in my ABDL side I don't do many AB things, but occasionally I will be in the mood for a PB&J while watching cartoons in my onesie and it is comforting.
Several of my AB friends have expressed interest in being cared for but I've never been able to break that barrier. Maybe it is just from a lack of engaging in AB-ness, but I think it is deeper than that. Deep inside I want to try my hand at being a "big bro" but at the same time I'm just helpless when it comes time to try it IRL (I believe they call this "easier said than done" ).
So I guess my question is this: For you ABDLs that "broke into" an AB role, how did it come about? What did you do to spur the development of that side of you? What advice can you offer someone like me who is trapped in the "I want to do this but I don't know how" mode? I know that talking with my AB friends about what they want in a caretaker role is key but I'm looking for deeper knowledge about what you all personally went through to break free into the AB world.
Thanks as always for everyone's input! I look forward to seeing the responses!