No, it's not to do with AB/DLism. *looses half the readers
It's about my constant suicidal feelings. I really want to tell my parents but (I still live with them by the way) I feel that they won't take me seriously unless I actually do it (or attempt it). I just feel they'll just think it's stupid and that I'm trying to get attention or something.
Also, I have exams this week and I'm afraid that they'll just think I'm trying to get out of them. I guess that's partly true since I'm going to fail them all. I haven't been able to study at all because I can't concentrate or get motivated with all this going on inside my head. Same with homework. I can't concentrate at all and my teachers pretty much hate me.
I've always had a ridiculously hard time talking to my parents about anything but I need to talk to them. I'm more comfortable with talking to my sister but naturally she's busy and won't be in the mood anyway. Like, what do I do? I can't go on like this. Not for much longer.