Just as the title suggests, I really don't know how much longer I can go on for. Every attempt I can manage at making myself happy never lasts and before I know it I'm just as depressed as ever.
I can't cope with feeling like this and I have no idea what the hell to do with my life anymore. I can't handle criticism or anything remotely negative from people. I can't bare being hurt anymore. Nobody at school ever wants to talk to me. My family are too busy to care about me. They're really shitty with the AB/DL thing and won't listen to anything I have to say about it. I can't deal with it anymore.
I tried being happy so many times and I can never maintain it. I know everyone else has better things to do than deal with me but I have to idea where to turn to. Suicide is just my escape route I can't bear life anymore and I can't bear being hurt anymore. They always say it gets better but that thought isn't enough to get me through life anymore.