I have been so much happier since I allowed myself to live as the adult baby that part of me has been wanting me to do for decades. I've been wearing diapers full time for 6 months at the end of April. I've been using a pacifier when in bed for several months too. I use a CPAP machine and a regular Nuk 5 fits into my mask very nicely. I've been using a round pacifier from the main AB company in the UK. I have baby food and formula which I've consumed from time to time but not for a while. I want to start consuming it on a more regular basis. A friend of mine who doesn't understand the AB lifestyle at all but knows some of the things that I do told me that l'll probably lose control of my bowel next. I came back into the lifestyle after many years because I became urinary incontinent. I find fecal incontinence rather disgusting. Is it a necessary step in my return to being a baby? I forgotten to mention that I have tons of diapers both disposable and cloth. I really like the sleeper that I got from Baby Pants. Does anyone know why they put the label of their shortalls on the outside. Is it just to make peoplr uncomfortable to wearvthem outside. I really wish that I had a mommy so that I could be a total baby at times and have someone to experience the lifestyle with but who wants to be amommy to a man who's 54 going on 2? Sorry for no paragraphs in this message and that there are probably spelling and grammar mistakes but I've been drinking and I typed all this on my phone. One more thing befors i go. I've never really considered myself a sissy although the other vhildren did when i was in public schol. However, well looking at the various AB items on Etsy, a site that's kind of like eBay, and seeing the sissyvitems including dresses, part of me really wants. Them. I've spent so much money on things that one or another part of me wants but I'd be willing to buy sissy items including dresses if I felt that I'd really wear them. I have bought frilly bibs and bonnets but haven't worn them much. Well there's a lot of my thoughts here and I would appreciate any thoughts. I hope that there are others who share some of these thoughts with me.