So, my husband and I tried to come to an agreement, on a schedule, to make things work, so I'm not binging, and dealing with this in a healthy manner.
My husband at first when I told him initially, was against it as a lifestyle, but was turned on by it as a kink, and just didn't understand my AB side.
After getting help from people on this forum, we came to what we thought was a reasonable compromise. I'd have my regression days 2 days a week. He even went so far as to play "Daddy" for me. I won't lie, even though he wasn't comfortable with it, I had a really great time the 2 days last week. He cuddled with me, and watched cartoons, gave me my pacifier, set out stickers papers and crayons for playtime, spoonfed princess-shape spaghettios, gave me a bubble bath and diapered/changed me before tucking me in with a warm bottle of milk and a bedtime story.
Now as my planned days are coming up this week, he's been seeming really depressed. He rarely gets into a low mood ever, letalone a low mood that lasts for more than a few hours, so seeing him like this the last few days has been worrying me.
So we talked about it.
He says that he doesn't know how he can deal with a partner who has an infant side to them. He says that since I opened up to him about it, it's been a cause of great stress to him, and our relationship, because even when I'm not regressing, he's dreading the time that I come to regress.
Now before you say anything, please don't be mean, please completely hear me out.
I love my husband very, very much, and seeing him this upset kills me. He's always been supportive of everything I do/am, and this is the only thing that has caused this much grief (asides from my shopping sprees with his income lol)
I said that my infantilism isn't going to just go away, but I'd be willing to remove his part in my routine. He said that he would still know that I had this infant side to me and it bothers him that he's married to a 25/2 year old.
I told him that he is my everything, and that it's not such a bad thing for me to indulge every now and then with a pacifier and shows, but just hang up the diapers, so-to-speak.
He thinks that is unreasonable for me to give up something because it upsets him, but he also feels like he can't be a part of my life if I continue.
I just don't know what to do, really. I mean, I 100% meant what I said, about not regressing in his presence, and keeping it to rare occasions, and I know that I could do that no problem, especially since I've got it under control now.
I hope that he can see this, but I'm afraid i've really scared him, and that there's no way to fix this.
Thanks for reading this guys, and as always, any and all support is appreciated.
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Also, I am looking into getting a copy of "There's a Baby in my Bed!" for us to read together and see if that helps. We are also planning on talking to a couples counselor about this too.