First of all, this post is probably going to be kind of depressing so don't read it unless you are prepared..
Ok, so what provoked me to post this was another short period of insanity I had last night where I just started cutting my arm. I can't really remember why I did it to be honest, it's different every time.
But what mainly provokes these actions is just I often have periods where I just feel like everyone is annoyed with me and that everything that is bad around me is my fault..
Nothing makes me feel happy and I also have negative feelings about my ABDLism. I have very low self esteem and I hate my appearance and personality and just my life in general. I wish I was more confident and I wish I could be more open about myself with everyone. Places like here on ADISC are the only places I can feel like I can be myself. Wow this makes no sense
I have always had great difficulty in expressing myself and feeling like I can be myself around others (mainly family). So many things that I want to do in my life are prevented through my fear of being judged by others or being looked down or thought negatively of.
This post is so stupid and I have no idea why I'm even doing this but whatever haha I'm confused..