I've asked this question before and time and time AND TIME again I'm given the same answer. "It will come in time." If it isn't this answerth it a much more useless one. I thinking of talking to a therapist or some kind of counselor. I need help! I hate not having some thought on where I'm going. This combined with a fear of losing my only source of financial stablilty, is making me stress out daily. A dead end job I hate. Sad thing is I love my boss. She's great and treats me well. I'm hours are being cut and no forseeable future to speak of. It enough for me to kill off my morals for a decent job. I'm living at home again and truly loathing it. I was thinking of jobs I would like, but some are crazy and out of reach in anyway. Some I don't believe I'm even capable of. I feel like I'm wasting perfectly good time waiting for my chance. I only wish I'm not meant for a fast food joint for the rest of my life. If I was told that I think I'd just give up. There's no life in something so small. Maybe I could win the lottery and follow my dreams afterwords. It's seeming like the way it will happen now. I know some people have read something similar in one of my blogs or post, but I'm losing my mind here. I would give up now, but I'm not built to give up.
If anyone want to know here is some of the ideas I had.
Write a comic, movie, tv show, or book
Try my hand at acting/voice acting (Insane idea fiy. Plus who want to see an actor with a lazy eye anyways)
Design weapons for the army. (Even more insane idea)
Start my own business (Don't have money for this idea)
Write/design/create a video game (I could maybe write and help draw basic prototypes)
I'm still thinking about other ideas.