Last Friday night/early Saturday morning marks the second time in a year that I've gotten into a fight. First off, I'm legally blind and not a person that usually does this sort of thing. I have a driver that takes me places but he isn't the sharpest tool in the shed and it really works on my anxiety so I already wasn't it the best mood. I was working (professional musician) and I had been drinking that night (8 beers, 3 mixed drinks, 3 shots.) When I returned home, my driver was talking a bit too loud and my Dad came downstairs and told us (him really) to please try and keep it down as my mom had to work early the next day. Usually I would say ok and be done with it but for some stupid reason I got violently angry, fired my driver and I attacked my Dad and we went at it. My elbow hasn't been right since and things have been a bit awkward but the worst part is... I DON'T REMEMBER ANY OF IT! AT ALL! NONE! Why is that? I'm so confused. Total blackout drunk? I feel so ashamed. Do I have a drinking problem?