No, she didn't die. But she did move away. I am not talking like another city or another state, but she moved back to Europe. I am just sad whenever I look at pictures of her or videos of her. We only started to talk to eachother for like 2 months and I am just worried that she will push me out of her mind. I feel like I became her friend by defalt, only becomming her friend b/c she didn't want to be rude and say I am not interested in talking to you.
I did get her address in Europe and mailed her a letter, but I am afraid that she will just be like "looks like he will never get a response from me". I have her myspace and AIM, but she hasn't responded to my messages or emails, I only set like 3 though, but still...
Am I heading for disaster trying to keep in contact with her? When ever I make a friend of the opposite sex, I end up f***ing it up and loosing them b/c I get too clingy. It is just hard for me to talk to girls and on the rare occasion that I get one I don't ever want to loose them, but in the end 90% of the time I do.
So, how can I cope with her leaving America? When I look at her pics and videos, how caqn I make it so that I don't tear up and feel remorseful in thinking that "I should have made more of an effort"?
For me it is just when ever I make a friend it is like I just conqured the British Empire and I want to be in that feeling forever. I don't want to loose her, any suggestions?