As the title suggests, I'm kinda losing hope of ever being able to fully express my AB/DL side
I've tried diapers once and I immediately fell in love with them, however the only reason I was able to pull this off is because My family were on holiday and there was no one else in the house for me to get caught by, In reality I'd never be able to buy/wear diapers on a regular basis because I'm constantly surrounded by my family I'm barely able to hide my pacifiers without nearly getting caught
I would really want to meet someone in real life who shares the AB/DL lifestyle but there is literally no one around here like that and where I come from this is really looked down upon which just makes me feel even more hopeless I don't ever expect this to come true after all I think it's everyone's dream to be able to relate to someone in that way.
Honestly the only way I'm able to feel like a part of something is through ADISC, but even then I feel like a stranger for some reason
I don't know what to do anymore and I don't think I will ever be able to express my AB/DL side as much as I want to and I'm starting to slowly give up, I just wish things were more easier than this