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    Ever since I was a kid i've had this infatuation with diapers and fantasies about a woman dominating me, making me crossdress,humiliating me, etc.

    I don't watch porn but what i'll do is find a hot girl on insta/tumblr and imagine her dominating me in every way and masturbate to that. It almost feels like I am that girl in a way? idk how to explain it.

    I am seriously ashamed of this fetish and it is pretty much ruining my life. Everytime I masturbate I can feel the urges becoming stronger and stronger but after i'm finished it all goes away for awhile and comes back.

    My main 2 fears are that I won't have a desire for normal sex when it comes time because i'm definatley attracted to women and that i'm a transgender in denial because i'm happy being a man, not that there's anything wrong with it.

    Also, funnily enough the last time I crossdressed was when I was 11 years old(21 now) in one of my mom's clothes.

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    Quote Originally Posted by andycandy View Post
    Ever since I was a kid i've had this infatuation with diapers and fantasies about a woman dominating me, making me crossdress,humiliating me, etc.

    I don't watch porn but what i'll do is find a hot girl on insta/tumblr and imagine her dominating me in every way and masturbate to that. It almost feels like I am that girl in a way? idk how to explain it.

    I am seriously ashamed of this fetish and it is pretty much ruining my life. Everytime I masturbate I can feel the urges becoming stronger and stronger but after i'm finished it all goes away for awhile and comes back.

    My main 2 fears are that I won't have a desire for normal sex when it comes time because i'm definatley attracted to women and that i'm a transgender in denial because i'm happy being a man, not that there's anything wrong with it.

    Also, funnily enough the last time I crossdressed was when I was 11 years old(21 now) in one of my mom's clothes.
    The main thing here is don't be ashamed of it! We all have different kinks and just be true to yourself! Keep your head up im sure everything will work out maybe it is phase or maybe it is apart of you either way just relax and be yourself no harm in what your doing

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    Quote Originally Posted by andycandy View Post
    Ever since I was a kid i've had this infatuation with diapers and fantasies about a woman dominating me, making me crossdress,humiliating me, etc.

    I don't watch porn but what i'll do is find a hot girl on insta/tumblr and imagine her dominating me in every way and masturbate to that. It almost feels like I am that girl in a way? idk how to explain it.

    I am seriously ashamed of this fetish and it is pretty much ruining my life. Everytime I masturbate I can feel the urges becoming stronger and stronger but after i'm finished it all goes away for awhile and comes back.

    My main 2 fears are that I won't have a desire for normal sex when it comes time because i'm definatley attracted to women and that i'm a transgender in denial because i'm happy being a man, not that there's anything wrong with it.

    Also, funnily enough the last time I crossdressed was when I was 11 years old(21 now) in one of my mom's clothes.
    Can I ask first off, why do you think it's ruining your life? Is it because of the fears? Or something more?

    For the second two things.. I think that you'll be just fine for normal sex. I also don't think really enjoying this fetish won't be bad. Even being excited about it, and even preferring it. It's just important to be reasonable and remember your partner will want to do some things too, and it will help out things a lot more if you both give and take. Hopefully your future partner just helps you out with it. If you feel like you might be having a sex addiction however.. that could be a whole other thing.

    The second thing.. if you do not want to be a transgender and you are comfortable being a man, then please don't worry. Gender doesn't have to be this blue and pink thing. You can be a man who just enjoys sissy stuff and crossdressing. You absolutely can. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise.
    Last edited by gigglemuffinz; 14-Feb-2015 at 06:16.

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    It sounds like the other side of 50 Shades of Gray. Everyone has secret desires. There are many of us who when regressing, imagine being the opposite gender. I think the part of that desire is out of wanting to be shamed. Maybe we were shamed when we had accidents during potty training. I'm sure there are psychological reasons for all of this. I wouldn't worry about it, but it would be more fulfilling for you if you eventually found a partner who was into the reciprocal side of your specific kink.

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    If you have an honest appetite for vanilla sex, indulging a kink seems unlikely to quench or suppress that. You seem to be worried that you are headed down a one-way, dead-end street of some kind. I doubt that's what's happening. Like gigglemuffinz suggested above, you might simply be somebody who enjoys, among many things, cross-dressing and playing as a girl.

    When I was in my late teens, I had a sort of autoerotic fascination with wearing bras and panties. I've referred to this in the past as "crossdressing," but it wasn't exactly that. It was more like playing both sides of a heterosexual relationship simultaneously. For a brief time, this did sort of make me wonder whether the "real thing" would ever happen, whether it would be any good, or whether I even wanted it. But it happened. And it was good -- according to my own indelible definition of "good."

    I think there are plenty of non-sissies here who can say similar things about diapers -- that they worried about a sexual attraction to diapers displacing the urge to have sex or somehow spoiling it. But, from what I've seen, these things end up proceeding in parallel more often than not. In a twisted sort of way, I suppose I could label myself a bisexual. On one hand, I desire and maintain a heterosexual relationship (am married). On the other, I have a sexual (and very emotionally one-sided!) relationship with diapers. The two don't mix at all, but then I'm just one data point.

    We can be several things at once. It works!

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    Quote Originally Posted by andycandy View Post
    Ever since I was a kid i've had this infatuation with diapers and fantasies about a woman dominating me, making me crossdress,humiliating me, etc.

    I don't watch porn but what i'll do is find a hot girl on insta/tumblr and imagine her dominating me in every way and masturbate to that. It almost feels like I am that girl in a way? idk how to explain it.

    I am seriously ashamed of this fetish and it is pretty much ruining my life. Everytime I masturbate I can feel the urges becoming stronger and stronger but after i'm finished it all goes away for awhile and comes back.

    My main 2 fears are that I won't have a desire for normal sex when it comes time because i'm definatley attracted to women and that i'm a transgender in denial because i'm happy being a man, not that there's anything wrong with it.

    Also, funnily enough the last time I crossdressed was when I was 11 years old(21 now) in one of my mom's clothes.
    I can relate, I fell relatively happy beaing a straight heterosexual male, and those same fears, too, and I'm definitely attracted to women, but I'm afraid because it, seemed to take over. The best advice I can give you is to not let it, take over, have your own life, zipperless made a schedule to schedule AB time, and little time somewhere, if that helps. Also I'll pray for you, Okay. 😺😺😺😺😺😺

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    Don't be ashamed of what you like. If it makes you happy do it!

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    Iv had these thoughts before, and still here and there after having my pleasure i feel like i need to take of my diaper but i have found that once you have somone who can accept it it kinda fades. But ity is one of those personal struggles that only get worse until you accept yourself usually.

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    Quote Originally Posted by andycandy View Post
    Ever since I was a kid i've had this infatuation with diapers and fantasies about a woman dominating me, making me crossdress,humiliating me, etc.

    I don't watch porn but what i'll do is find a hot girl on insta/tumblr and imagine her dominating me in every way and masturbate to that. It almost feels like I am that girl in a way? idk how to explain it.

    I am seriously ashamed of this fetish and it is pretty much ruining my life. Everytime I masturbate I can feel the urges becoming stronger and stronger but after i'm finished it all goes away for awhile and comes back.

    My main 2 fears are that I won't have a desire for normal sex when it comes time because i'm definatley attracted to women and that i'm a transgender in denial because i'm happy being a man, not that there's anything wrong with it.

    Also, funnily enough the last time I crossdressed was when I was 11 years old(21 now) in one of my mom's clothes.
    We are beings made to be sexual .
    Now that being said when we are young it feels good in diapers some do not for get it also feels good when mommys caring you in that nite gown the silk feel good to now you mite not know those felling come from but some
    Level your body does.

    Your not a bad person no we cant turn off what we have over thousand of years development make us what we are.
    Like my pampers and stuff I tryed to give it up but its a part of me.
    Your not alone never were.
    Just no there no right or wrong we all have things that makes us happy you and i just picked a defrent stuff .
    Take care.

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    my internet has been down for a few days but these replies are so good lol, I just felt like if I ever told a long term partner my kinks they'd be really really weirded out because this is so out there and bizarre, probably pretty hard for people to understand since even I myself don't understand why i'm like this. But it is nice to know that i'm not alone. But yeah, my main worry is that my kinks will take the need for normal sex from me which I think i'm still interested in but I haven't had sex in 5 years lol. But at the very least I guess female domination isn't hard to ask for in a partner sometimes, like switch off and stuff.

    Like others here I derive something different from diapers, while I don't particularly enjoy the mommy thing my enjoyment from them is like imagining a powerful female forcing me into them. They are just a part of the domination factor for me

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