Ever since I was a kid i've had this infatuation with diapers and fantasies about a woman dominating me, making me crossdress,humiliating me, etc.
I don't watch porn but what i'll do is find a hot girl on insta/tumblr and imagine her dominating me in every way and masturbate to that. It almost feels like I am that girl in a way? idk how to explain it.
I am seriously ashamed of this fetish and it is pretty much ruining my life. Everytime I masturbate I can feel the urges becoming stronger and stronger but after i'm finished it all goes away for awhile and comes back.
My main 2 fears are that I won't have a desire for normal sex when it comes time because i'm definatley attracted to women and that i'm a transgender in denial because i'm happy being a man, not that there's anything wrong with it.
Also, funnily enough the last time I crossdressed was when I was 11 years old(21 now) in one of my mom's clothes.