Well I haven't been on the forum for a few weeks. I have a little bit better understanding of the binge/purge cycle now. A few weeks ago I went all out and bought a few packs of diapers as well as a sippy cup and a pacifier. Then a few days later, I just didn't feel the urge to get diapered. Which brings me to a philosophy: you can have too much of a good thing. Then, you won't find it as being special. The binge is when you are really into AB/DL and thinking about it and participating a lot. Then it doesn't feel special anymore, so you stop for a little while. I ended the "purge" by wearing and using a Goodnite yesterday; I remembered how great it felt and it felt special. I think I'll make myself some AB/DL rules such as only allowing myself to wear two days a week, and only wearing to bed on SIDF. Have you had similar experiences to this?