The more my girlfriend and I talk about my DL-side, the more I seem to be ashamed of the thought of someone judging me and seeing me, for the first time, wearing a diaper. The more I think about it, the more it seems silly because she has been more than accepting and even proposed buying me diapers for my birthday (next weekend) to show that she really means what she says.
Some of the shame comes from the majority of the public not knowing what this fetish is or what it's for, but for me it's a stress relief and a comfort. I can't explain it, a similar feeling to many of you I'm sure, but it works and is harmless to myself and others. Another portion, and probably the largest portion, comes from myself. In the moment there's nothing more that I want to be in a warm, secure, comfortable diaper and just relax. Take it all in and enjoy the feelings that come with this. When I'm not in the moment I look in the mirror and see a 20 year-old boy standing in front of me wearing a diaper. This image is going to be something I will struggle with for a bit longer to rid myself of and realize that this is not something that I should be ashamed of.
I've been talking with her this evening about seeing her this weekend and she has actually said that if I wanted to wear around her this weekend she'd be more than happy to help me become more accepting of my DL-side. If that's not an incredible girlfriend, I don't know what is.
TL;DR: My girlfriend is exceptional and plans to help me become more accepting of my DL-side by allowing me to wear around her hopefully this weekend. She will be the first person to see me in a diaper, ever.
Thanks for reading,