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    Default Would you stop being an adult baby if you could?

    I asked myself this question today and I found it rather hard to answer. I don't think I could ever want to witness the death of that side of myself. Some how, it wouldn't feel right; it just wouldn't be fair.

    For the first time since becoming an adult baby, I looked in the mirror today and I saw a grown ass man in a diaper, vs the cute little baby I've always seen and it scared the hell out of me.

    What I can't understand is, if that's how I've really always felt about it deep down, then why am I still sitting in my gear while I'm typing this and not gathering it all to throw it in the nearest trash bin, trying to forget it ever happened?


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    No, but it's mostly my friends that are driving this answer. When I had that three month period before joining our precursor site when I had no desire whatsoever for anything in the ABDL world, I was still myself and it was fine. It freed up my time and attention for other things. They weren't necessarily better, but I didn't feel any hole in my life as a result. The difference now is that I have friends who are ABDLs and while it's never the only thing we have in common, it's a powerful connection. While I have friends who don't know that I'll always cherish, it's something different to know and be known in this way and I'd hate to lose that for myself and to be that loss for them.

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    I probably wouldn't. I'm sure something else would have filled in for comfort and security if I hadn't been a little. But of course then you have all the flow on effects. Would my personality have been different? Would I have been good at the same things? Would I have succeeded in school as well? Would I have been less caring? Because I was popular, would I have been a bully because I didn't understand other people?

    If I could without losing the rest of my life I think I would get rid of it. Not through guilt or shame but out of simplicity. This can make life pretty complicated at times even when it's meant to make life simpler.

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    No and here we are getting into complicated areas, one thing you mentioned is seeing a grown ass man in diapers, which o found interesting if anything it speaks more to exposure to preset notions set by society of what is right for an adult to wear and do and what is not, leaving disability aside, one of the mani reasons adults wear diapers, there is a stigma against it which seems silly even when the cause of it is well established and known.

    I don't think this was a moment of true realization of true feelings as much as it could have easily been you seeing yourself as you physically are combined with the judgements we know people tend to make about us. It could have been fear, and it isn't uncommon to step back and question ones own lifestyle, prefrance a or even identity from time to time.

    Honestly often I wonder if adult baby isn't somehow related to/similar to things like gener identity disorder. Now that might be an interesting comparisons, but I link it because at least for me it's not a choice it never ever has been, it's been a part of me well since I was an infant, it just never went away as I got older, even when I tried to ignore it it stayed there running things in the background. But I also have to wonder am I then in someways like that due to my autism anyways? I might actually make this a seperate post

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    Quote Originally Posted by Ebonybaby View Post
    I asked myself this question today and I found it rather hard to answer. I don't think I could ever want to witness the death of that side of myself. Some how, it wouldn't feel right; it just wouldn't be fair.

    For the first time since becoming an adult baby, I looked in the mirror today and I saw a grown ass man in a diaper, vs the cute little baby I've always seen and it scared the hell out of me.

    What I can't understand is, if that's how I've really always felt about it deep down, then why am I still sitting in my gear while I'm typing this and not gathering it all to throw it in the nearest trash bin, trying to forget it ever happened?

    I do not look at my self .
    I quit for 3 years felt dead in side .
    So enjoy who you are .
    Your not alone.

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    I felt like I would have quit if I could from my teen years until I was 22. Then I realized that this was who I am, and I decided I would defend myself from then on, now I answer no to that question, because I just love who I am, and if that means I end up single for the rest of my life, at least I am at peace with myself.

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    My answer is No, but there was a period where I would've gladly discarded my AB tendencies if I had the chance. It's a part of my identity - my internal identity, though not really my public identity - and it actually serves a very useful purpose in helping me to channel my stress in a much healthier way than drinking heavily. It took me an annoyingly long amount of time to realise that something which society often saw as weird or counterproductive like ABDL, could be healthy for me personally. I can't say I like the feeling of having an integral part of my life which I need to be discreet about, but that's a minor annoyance in comparison to the happiness and comfort I often get from being an AB.

    It isn't always an easy part of one's personality to deal with, but once you accept that you're ABDL, and embrace that fact, you realise that there's plenty of ways in which engaging with your little side is both fun and therapeutic.

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    Quote Originally Posted by Tyger View Post
    I felt like I would have quit if I could from my teen years until I was 22. Then I realized that this was who I am, and I decided I would defend myself from then on, now I answer no to that question, because I just love who I am, and if that means I end up single for the rest of my life, at least I am at peace with myself.
    This is exactly how I feel as well. I hated being drawn to diapers and wetting when I was a high school student and in college. But now it gives me so much pleasure, as well as a sense of peace, that I'd never give it up. It's a part of who I am and I'm comfortable with that.

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    In short, no. There have been two times when my ABDL desires “disappeared”, although I now know they never really went away.

    The first time was when I was a senior in high school going into my freshman year in college. I was very busy with classes and getting used to life in college, so I didn’t have time for diapers and my desires were placed on the back burner. While I was happy, at some points I felt a certain emptiness that I was unable to explain. By the end of freshman year going into sophomore year, I was settled in and my desires came back, rather quickly in fact. I even mustered up the courage to buy my first pack of Goodnites when I went home for the summer, my parents went on vacation for a few days and my brothers were at camp. When I went back for my sophomore year, I decided step up and buy some actual adult diapers. The desires were there for over a year.

    The second time they went away is when I actually tried making them go away. This was partly driven by the mirror thing and partly by a really bad leak incident. At first it was somewhat tough, but after some time I felt like I had sufficiently kicked my desires (although, unlike a certain member, I didn’t come on here gloating about how I successfully got rid of my desires and encouraging everyone else to do the same). But, I had the same feeling of emptiness return, the same one I mentioned earlier. This time it was a lot stronger. I truly felt like a part of me was missing. Eventually, this began leading to feelings of depression. After a while, I realized it wasn’t right to ignore something that it part of who I am. I decided to embrace my little side. I got a pair of footie pajamas, I started wearing diapers more regularly, and I began getting more ABDL stuff such as pacifiers. I felt like I was happier, complete, and it makes dealing with stress a lot easier.

    What all this taught me is it was better to embrace myself and everything about me than try to ignore one facet or another. The path to self-acceptance becomes much easier this way. I love every aspect of being ABDL, and I wouldn’t give it up for anything. As for the mirror thing, I found that by using my imagination instead of seeing my adult self I can see a younger version of myself, someone who never really left childhood. This has also made self-acceptance a lot easier, as it makes looking at myself a lot less scary.

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    In my case, definitely not.

    A big part of my rational is that the whole diaper thing, while something I enjoy, is probably not my main fetish. It's something I can (and in the past have) abstain from for long periods of time without it being a huge deal. I guess I've never felt trapped by it. It's something I can enjoy when life circumstances permit, and something I can put on the shelf when they don't.

    And give up bondage (which is most definitely my main fetish)? Hell no! It's just too much damn fun and I've met way too many awesome people.

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