Okay, well here is my rant... I hate the feeling love! Not just love, but the want of getting attention from the opposite sex in general. I have never had any luck with the oppisite sex. I have very few friends from that sex, i will become friends with them and then do something to scre them off and hate me. They either get scared off, move away, or just forget about you! I have one where my cottage is and we pretty much spend the whole summer together with some other friends and we do everything together for 3 months...then, nothing, no contact through myspace or facebook or AIM. IT is like I am just her friend by defalt. I am there for the duration and nothing else.
Okay, this year. I want to hang out with one of my friends who is a girl, but everytime I ask,m she makes up stupid excuses not to hang out.
And, the one who i really become quick friends with moves half a world away and I will never see her again. We have very little time to talk, because of the time zone differences.
So, my question to all of you is this...2 questions actually...
1). Do any of you wish you could get ride of these feelings and/or desires?
2). IS it possible to destroy these wants and feelings in your mind?
They bring nothing but depression and suffering! Remorse and regret! Feeling of stupidity and outcastmenship.
Think of your mind as a country and these feelings are a rebellious city. What I want to do is dispatch the army and slaughter and kill these feelings and burn the city to the ground erasing its' presence from my mind!
Thanks you for listening to this rant