Hey, haven't been here for awhile and probably won't be on much more but I wanted to post this here. I am what I would call, a former Diaper Lover. I had a desire for wearing diapers since.....well, ever since I can remember. Now I have done the whole purge thing so I know that this isn't it. I honestly have lost my desire for the whole diaper thing.
As a kid in high school, I searched and prayed for my desire to disappear but it never did. I got married, my wife knew about it, but didn't participate. I wore occasionally and always wanted diapers. Then about August of last year, I just didn't feel like it anymore. Didn't have the need or desire. I didn't care one way or the other. I mean, sure, if my wife asked me to wear a diaper right now, I would but it wouldn't mean anywhere near the same as it would've. I just have no need for it or real desire. To me, it would be just like if she asked me to shave my legs. I would do it for her but it does nothing for me.
Now, what changed? I'm not sure. I have noticed I focus more on my other sexual desire more, bondage, but even that isn't as strong as my diaper fetish once was. So I don't know what changed.
I just know that I hoped that someday it would disappear but everyone said it would never happen. That its a part of you and it always would be. All I am saying is, if you want it to be gone, it is possible. I don't know how except for saying, I prayed and worked at pleasing my wife and soon it just disappeared.
Just a disclaimer: By no means do I think you shouldn't accept being an ABDL. In fact, I had recently come to terms with it and finally quit wishing it away, all I wanted was peace and acceptance and instead of my wife just accepting it, those desires disappeared which gave me that peace and acceptance from my wife. Being an ABDL isn't bad or something you should "cure" or get rid of but if you honestly want to let that part of your life go, it is possible and don't let anyone tell you otherwise. Biggest and best thing you can do is accept yourself for who you are and you can do whatever you want.
I am happy with how things worked for me. I don't want to have a diaper fetish. Sure, I enjoyed it and if I still had it, I would accept it but if I had my choice (I said my choice, not anyone else's), I would not have the fetish. It fits me much better being this way and I just want to let anyone who is like me know, there is hope at moving past this if you want.
If you want to ask me about it go ahead and post here or else pm me and I will try and check in every once in awhile to see if I can help. And again, I am by no means against the ABDL lifestyle, it just didn't fit me and I'm very happy I have moved past that. This isn't an argument about me moving on either. I know what the whole purge feeling is and this isn't it. I can guarantee it. This isn't to offend anyone, just to help those who really want to let go and give them hope and maybe, just maybe, I can help someone who does truly want to move on.