So, I got sample packs of a few different diapers from XP Medical. They are supposed to get here in the next couple days (and I'm impatiently watching the FedEx tracker in the meanwhile) Might sound a bit sudden, but deciding to join here was made around the time of dedicating to buy them (same day, actually).
I guess why? It has nothing to do with identity clash... it isn't for anything sexual... I think it's a combination of being curious and practical. I definitely blame my old roommate for saying I should wear diapers for really getting the curiosity going...
As for practical, I've got a few activities where bathroom breaks are interrupting, so I'm gonna test with those.
But first, the delivery. I never order stuff, and my sister is visiting for a while. I also work evenings, so the chance of her stumbling across a box for me when there's never a box for me is high. I doubt she'd open it or look through my stuff after it disappears--she won't even look in my bookcase for a book I say is there--but she'll be just dying to know what it was and I'll never hear the end of it. Still thinking of what to tell her if she asks, and while I've been content to let her believe I have mountains of porn in my room, that's unlikely to work for a cubic foot box.
One of the activities to try wearing with is when I'm out taking photos. Light changes quickly, and I've come to learn that the bladder of the nature photographer is actually a steel compression tank... Seriously, it's way too uncomfortable to hold it that long, and it's distracting while you're trying to set up the shot or get to another place until you find a toilet... a rare occurance where I take pictures.
Concerns are basically that I have poor control once I start, so if I flood it on accident (disturbingly likely), it better be good and non-leaky... otherwise I'm gonna be out in cow town with wet pants. In the cold.
Probably not right away, but perhaps at some point, I'd like to try wearing them at work. I'll have to see how using them out in Cow Land and Pine Tree Land go. It doesn't get very busy for me except over the holidays (where I actually changed employee type from customer service to counter fixture), but I don't really like taking toilet breaks at work... and not but rarely because of the state of the bathroom. Just don't like to.
Of course, if I decide to wear at work it'll have to be super ultra mega discreet. Negligible chance of leaks. No noise louder than my pants (which are a bit noisy). No rising shirt. And no incredible wardrobe disasters (which I almost had once or twice).
I'd also like to try wearing them to bed. This is mostly just curiosity of the experience. I also want to know why my old roommate said I should wear diapers. I'm not sure why he said that. As far as I can tell, I don't wet the bed, and I'm everything but incontinent, so he was probably pulling my leg... but why diapers? There was zero chance of him knowing I would think about taking his suggestion seriously.
Umm... obviously, it can't leak. That'd be... worse... than leaking at work... ... Way worse. A kind of worse I'd rather never deal with. I'm not sure if I'll do the overnight test, honestly. In relation to my apocalyptic repercussion hinting, how do you people feel about it?
Anyways, that was... longer... than I anticipated. Here's to a good first experiments and non-hair-pulling sister haranguing. And sleep. Without those terrifying peeing dreams.