So, I've been into ABDL and such for years and years and years but have always been sort of a 'lurker' in the background. I've sorta found this side of my life to be something to be...hidden to say the least. I've never quite figured out WHY I got into it.
I found out recently, though, at the end of November that apparently I've had a disease all my life called 'interstitial cystitis' meaning the lining of my bladder has apparently been non-existant causing urine to be an irritant to it, and my bladder has been somewhat hardened and unable to expand past 400cc without bodily damage, I'm guessing to ill-use considering I've felt the need to pee at roughly 25cc-50cc all my life thus never giving it the CHANCE to expand.
Until November I was peeing 1-5 times per hour and waking up every 1-2 hours at night and considering that normal and never knowing any different. I have *recently* learned that the average person only pees 4-8 times PER DAY. Similar to a person who has been deaf all their life learning that their ears are supposed to work.
It took me so long to finally go to the doctor for it because, well, when you grow up and you feel the need to CONSTANTLY pee, no one every really believes you, and if they say 'you should go to a doctor' it's generally not presented in a very...positive light so it becomes a thing of shame, and something to be hidden because you think "well, maybe they're right. Maybe I AM making it u-gotta go-definitely not making it up..."
I'm now medicated for it, and improving GREATLY, but it sorta put together WHY I like this particular fetish. Diapers sorta make me feel like 'it's ok, it's not a problem' and *semi-normal*. This particular fetish made me feel like 'well, there are others out there who are having the same issue' even though I didn't realize it was a *legitimate* medical issue. Everyone around me saw it, but just like a deaf person, everybody but the deaf person realizes the full function of the malfunctioning part.
When I'm home alone I'll wear them around the house so I can do things like, watch a 30 minute tv show without having to move, or play a video game without having to keep pausing.
I drive a lot and when I'm on long trips, I will wear diapers because, well, when you feel the need to pee so often and things like belts, pants, and seatbelts press on the bladder, an 8 hour trip is just...just so difficult.
Since I've been medicated (and thank GOD I'm medicated now. MAJOR relief) I now will wear them when I'm alone so I can drink a lot of water and hold it for longer and not worry about feeling like I'm going to have an accident (anxiety+having to pee=not good). I can hold it until my bladder CAN'T hold it anymore thus allowing it to EXPAND and allowing the medicine to work.
I've now gone from only being *barely* able to hold 50cc to now seeing 100cc-150cc on a regular basis with an *occasional* 200cc and ONE 300cc. Ever since visiting the urologist I've measured just about every time I pee to gauge improvement.
Anyway, just figured I'd share