hello all I am fairly new to the abdl community. long story short, i wet the bed until i was 15, i am 22 now. i was forced to wear goodnites pullups until 15 each night. ever since then i have had urges that come up every once in a while to wear the same goodnites during the day.
they are comfortable, and they make me happy. but it feels so wrong. I don't understand where it all is coming from? i don't understand why wearing pullups/diapers and age playing makes me happy, yet feel so out of place at the same time. inner self hate perhaps?
please forgive me as i was raised by very judgemental people. i do my best not to judge. except myself, i judge the crap out of myself, which seems to be my problem.
please tell me your experiences. please help me see if this world is where i belong. (this world meaning abdl)