Living on my own seems to be a pipe dream. There's no descent jobs around here. I don't see a reason to keep trying any further, when there no feedback coming in. I'll give this maybe another month before I consender this experience a failure. Even my attempt at befriending my co-worker was a failure. She just used me and shuns me if I'm not useful to her. After all this time in a new city I found myself hating people even more than usual. I learned one thing from all of this. I'm meant to be alone. There is no one for me in this world.