I just took the Bem Sex Role Inventory test
This is something that I took under guidance when I was younger and it showed that I had a strong feminine side (that's how it was communicated). Bear in mind that I'm biologically male.
So, having taken the test again, scored 46.5% on the masculine scale, 87.5% on the feminine scale and 72.8% on the Androgen scale
Seems that this has been stable for a long time. Shame that it has taken so long to deal with it. Given that I was a teenager at the time I took it the first time it might have saved a lot of heartache over the years if I had been offered support and guidance as to how to deal with this. Don't get me wrong, I'm male and want to stay that way.
Not that surprised that I did not get any support as I had a strict religious upbringing and i'm sure that my parents would have been shocked with this result and I'm sure that they were told that this is OK and normal.
Too late for me to do much about it now without loosing too much. Sorry if this sounds like I'm down about this, I'm more annoyed that I did not wake up to this earlier. I'll just carry on indulging the Sissy me in private and carry on as normal.