Hi every body its been awhile since I've posted on here other then pop up on ask a toddler game and related forums. How I feel at the moment is what my post title is. To start off about two months ago in late November I moved out of a friends house, amid not wanting to be caught up in an a possible drug bust . I was not involved in any selling , I did however do some but not enough to get high and said forget it after that. This was a little over two weeks before I moved out back to my parents. As a result and I've posted a little over a year ago on my parents view on infantilism . In short there viewpoint on infantilism is "of the devil and a pit of hell" . I'm also ignostic and was up until now seeing a bible being placed on my bed always open to revelations . As a result of moving back I've had to throw away all my abdl stuff which as caused me to not until now have insane feeling little cravings. Besides this I apparently have to get help for being into infantilism and go to church, I'm not religious but anybody Religious or not should be able to decide whether or not they want to go to church at all when living with parents or anybody else. The only good I see out of this money wise is that my dad is providing me with some piece work that I make money from, but I don't get to see any of it as its going towards rent, utilities so whatever I am making on snow removal I pocket and spend some. I can say honestly now that I feel trapped , not at all in my parents house but without a job and searching for one, even if its out of state. At the same time I just want to move back in with a friend even with the presence of illegal drugs at times. Sorry if I ranted I just needed to get this off my chest .