It has been quite sometime since I have posted here and I wish I could comment on a positive aspect of my life, but sadly I cannot.
I had a nice ( and I use the term facetiously) fight with my wife today. I am not going to place all the blame on her as I've been stressed out due to school and haven't been in the best of moods, but when she told me that she has no interest in my little side it made me very upset.
When we first met she had no issues with any of this and we would often have nights were we would indulge each others fantasies. Unfortunately, as time passed all that stopped. This whole affair is baffling to say the least as a few years ago on Christmas day she she gave me a present which she made that resembled coupons that could be exchanged for things like diaper changes, baths, bedtime stories, etc. It wasn't much, but the idea made me very happy. Sadly, for one reason or another, none of those things ever happened.
This isn't the first time this has happened and normally I have been able to let it go, but now I am finding myself at the point where I just don't know if can continue on in the relationship. For the longest time I have had the feeling of walking on egg shells and now I'm at an impasse.
I do love her, but if she clearly doesn't want anything to do with something that is a big part of who I am, I can't see how continuing our relationship is helping either of us.