A few months before my boyfriend and I began dating, I told him that I was into ageplay. Now, I don't normally act so openly to people, but there was always something about him that made me feel comfortable. He replied pretty neutral about it, something along the lines of, "if it makes you happy, you should do it"- so I kind of took this as disinterest on his part, and didn't bring it up again.
A week ago, while he was very, very exhausted and out of it, we were discussing our "interests" and I was being quite shy about mine. Under his breath he whispered something, and I pushed him to repeat it. "Pacifier", is what I heard. I freaked out in a fit of embarrassment and then shyly and with slight shame, confirmed it with him. He went on to tell me that when I told him about the ageplay thing he ended up googling it and stumbled onto this site, and even "had an idea of what I wanted." I was shocked that he wanted to date me still, heh.
For the past few days, we've been playing a video game together. He's been calling me "little girl" and following me around, making remarks about how he can't let me out of his sight, and even bought me a crown in-game because he "thought little girls wanted to be a princess". I made a feisty comment to a NPC at one point, "you're not my dad"- and he replied immediately with "yeah, I am." I mentioned to him that when we first met eachother, a friend that was there jokingly said "Yeah, (Nyan) wants to be like, eight." I told him, "Firstly, she outed me to you! Secondly, that's way off!" and he replied with "Yeah, that's too old!" He's also made comments like "Go to bed now sweetie", "(because) I said so"- being a bit more authoritative as time goes on.
Basically, I think he's pretty much got the concept of it. But my issue is.. This isn't really it for me, and I really want to let my guard down entirely- I'm scared to use my pacifier or bottle or wear around him, but I know that I want him to be involved.
In a nutshell: how do I tell my boyfriend that I'm not just little, but I'm an AB/have AB tendencies?