Okay so I'll start off with saying, I'm born biologically male. I've collected and bought some cute things that were not age nor gender appropriate and I always am more drawn to the girl stuffs. I don't know nor can I say if this is a gender difficulty in general, or just I'm more open when I'm in Baby-Mode...But that's a topic for another day.
So here's the dilemma...I'm "male"...Regardless of what I could/should be or whether its a sissy thing...Or a "gay" thing I don't know. But I want this doll... Like I REALLY REALLY want this doll. And I work in a store that sells them... So it's like my place of work - buuuutt I can't exactly be buying dolls at my work, where they all know I only have little boys to buy for (only boys in the family, not my own kids) So they know I'm not married, don't have kids...And pretty much things I buy are evidently FOR ME... I was kinda fixated on them a bit too, you know fixing / straightening the shelf and such a little "more" than normal xD. So I REALLY don't wanna draw attention to that. So ya, I'm also a super price-saver type, and it's Black Friday Weekend...so needless to say I only have a day or so to figure this out. Anyway I got up the nerve to try an online to home order right? Well I wanted my discount (I AM an exployee after all!) So I tried to order and after all that, and the workaround and moving the money onto that VISA debit thing and all... I can't pay with my method of payment and get the discount! ... Unless I order to the store... It was bad enough I had to make up a story to the guy on the phone that I have a "girlfriend" who "collects" them... (I guess that makes me my own GF xD)...But seriously, what am I supposed to do NOW???
Dilemma: I want my discount I am entitled to, can't use it with my method of payment without going into the store, can't go into the store because I work there and everyone knows me...Oh and to add insult to injury? Guess, what - it's a store EXCLUSIVE doll! T_T Only sold there. Also, it's bad enough I'm paying shipping to avoid buying in store to deliver to my home so noone knows because I don't need enough to buy enough to meet the free shipping requirement.
Honestly, on a separate but similar topic, I can't tell you if I want it because of my AB side, or because of a gender thing, which may or may not be related and I don't know nor understand how it relates. All I know is in my mind I keep thinking I want her just because "She's Perfect"... That's all xD Sorry if that's weird. Actually got really depressed the other night over it because all my attempts failed... and it was enough to actually open an account on here to see what others think about it... So pleeasse help, and don't think I'm weird.