I have been away from this site almost a full year, I was having trouble with my partner at the time not understanding about my desires to be an abdl. It got to the point I just gave everything up and sold off all of my abdl items and never wore a diaper again until recently. I had fenengled up a makeshift one while my partner was at work, the whole time I abstained I did still think about them and had dreams about them. I know before I was using wearing diapers as an escape from my responsibilities and I understand thats what my partner was trying to get at with it. Im at the point now that its something that I still want to do from time to time but I dont know how to convey this to him without him thinking that I want to go back to the way things were before.ive kind of hinted at it before but it was all mostly largely ignored.also ive given up my ab side it was a psychological hinder in a sense on me and was feeding into the running away from problems things.