This is the first time I have come to a site like this, but I need advice. And the internet is the best place for that, right?
I have been dating the same guy for around 4 yrs now. We've had our up and our downs, but we have managed to work through them all successfully (for the most part).
I'm new to this. Even though I've worn diapers for around 3 yrs now, everything is still new to me. I never really delved into it like he did. Even though I love it when he wears diapers, messes in them, etc. I even love it when he puts them on me, and I use them, or am forced to use them.
But I've come to the point where I don't think what I am doing is enough for him. Though I've tried talking to him about what he wants and needs, and what I want and need...it never really goes anywhere. He changes the subject or ignores it completely.
He watches porn constantly with diapered girls. Its not the porn that bothers me. Its the fact that we rarely have sex anymore, and the amount of porn he watches has gone up significantly.
I'm not sure if I am just being insecure or not, but it bothers me. More than it should because of the lack of intimacy in our relationship. I've told him, repeatedly, that I don't care how weird he thinks something is, I am willing to do it at least once to see if I like it. That's how it was with diapers in the beginning, and now I love them. I'm not afraid to try new things.
He just seems so closed off to me about this fetish that we have both have. I'm confused and honestly lonely, because I feel most of the things out there are also for men and not for women. So I don't know what to do. I don't know how to handle this anymore.