OK, I'm not really sure what I'm looking for here by posting this. Maybe other's thoughts?
I'm 36 years old and am male. I've always been intrigued and excited by AB/DL aspects as well as CD/LG. My wife is cool with it and has participated in play time on a few occasions... But I seem to be running on empty these days.
I've had my T levels checked and they are low. I look back and realize that they probably have always ran low. I was not a walking bag of male horniness when I was in my teens and I think that the low T is more prevelant now that my natural hormone levels have started to wane (post 30). I've got two boys from my ex so I know that things worked enough. My wife and I married this past March and I started on androgel. It seemed to help some. I then started some GNC Performance & Vitality. That seemed yo help considerably. My issues were interest related and not actual southern functions. During the summer though I had an incident with failure to sustain an irrection. I actually orgasmed with a lose of erection. It freaked me the F out! I was still 35 and stuff was not working properly. I've had issues since of inability to become errect as well as loss of interest. If I have to pee real bad in the morning, it will often be erect but otherwise doesn't want to cooperate. I had my T levels retested after 7 months on three pumps of androgel a day and my levels had risen from 220 to 279. That's not much...but I was functioning at 220! I'm wondering how much of this is psychological as I am kinda freaked. I'm afraid to try anything with my wife as I feel like a failure. We've gotten each other off without intercourse but we're wanting a baby so intercourse is needed. I feel like I'm shorting her.
Any thoughts? Yes, I'm diabetic but after losing 66lbs, I am not insulin dependent any longer. My doc gave me some samples of Cialis and Viagra...but I'm still stuck on my age and not sure what to do.
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Also, I feel that I am denying her a normal sex life as I seemed to not be excited unless its getting kinky.