I'm 18 years old, a furry, and a diaper lover. As a result, so does my fursona. I made the choice that the only thing different about my fursona and I, is that my fursona is an anthropomorphic animal. Personally I think most furries try to separate their fursona and themselves but me? I embrace myself as I am. I'm not perfect, I've failed, I've messed up, and I've gone through a lot in my 18 years of living. People seem to discredit me because of age which I find sad. I've had many experiences in my life and I've thought differently than those before me. I have revolutionary ideas, but no one listens to me because... I'm 18. I know I'm not the only one with issues and I'm sure many of you have them. I do not wish to compare problems I simply want others to be aware of them. For one? I cannot handle arguments or anything that looks like one. I get in a super defensive mode and take anything negative as a personal attack. This of course, is unattractive to most. I'm really not a bad man and I do my best to be as honest as possible. I don't want to waste anyone's time. I've learned that every moment has to be treasured as if it were our last, because for all we know? It could be our last breath. The world is full of evil and cruelty, but it is also full of hope, justice, and good. Never give up hope just because of bad experiences. Let them change you... But for the better. If there's anything I've learned about being a furry since the age of five? It's that a house divided cannot stand. Whether or not Abraham Lincoln actually said that or not is debatable. But of course, I would admit if I was wrong, if someone pointed out that he did indeed say it. History is not my favorite subject in school but ironically I love most of what is on the History channel. I love to learn, when I don't feel like I'm in school. Right now I'm doing a homeschooling thing with 2 private tutors who are actually just a family that want to help me succeed. Their daughters really love me, as well as their pit bulls who are normally over protective. They are actually more calm if I ever go to their place. They look sad when I leave too. I guess when you show no fear, they show no aggression. I have delt with many kinds of fear, but the only fear left? Is a logical one. The fear, of the unknown. Anyway, back on topic. I've been a diaper lover for about... 4 years. But here's the thing... I used to wet the bed. Until. I. Was. 14. I hated it... I would wake up in my own urine. I would always be scared to death... I'd have to embarrassingly tell my parents I wet bed or wherever I'd been sleeping. Before you ask? Yes, I have done that when I slept near friends. They never said anything mean and knew I didn't mean to. They'd calmly wash the offending articles or my mom would if I was home, and say not to worry. I had incontinence no more, when I turned 15. Yet, I missed the diapers and pull ups. When I was 16 and 17 I'd snag a diaper or two that I know would fit. Somtimes from my grandpa's bathroom. In his sickness and old age, he needed them. I wouldn't take much but I always ended up wetting the ones I took. I have tried 'messing' but never ever liked it so I stopped trying that. If I did go #2 it'd be where it belongs down the sewage pipes into the septic tank. I still have the 'high' whenever I put them on. I immediately get excited if I know I get to have them, sometimes It would be even a size 6 or a swim pull up that'd fit. I'm quite thin so that only allowed me more 'breathability' in small diapers or pull ups. I even at one point told my dad I needed them. Once when I was sick, another time, 'for a friend'. I think he knows I have the fetish but he's very laid back and loves me. The last time I wore was probably 2 years ago. To my dismay it looks as if the only available thing to get them... Is to get them myself from a store. Not many brands are that great. Online is always better But I'll need a credit card. Which I may or may not get tomorrow when I open my first real bank account because I'm 18. Anyway, I hope this post gave a little bit about me and that you enjoyed It for the most part. Peace!