I don't want to go through this again, the second pacifier was harder than it needed to be to get. I can't afford another, and knowing me I will end up throwing it out. I enjoyed my night very much, but I just still don't feel right for some reason. I don't know what is wrong with me. I am trying to be happy, little, mature, and everything in between. I don't know if it is just because I had one fun night, and I am scared I won't get another for a while, or if I am just crazy. I am feeling sorta lost at the moment, like I am torn between two big decisions and can't decide. I am doing my best to stay chill, collected, and calm. I don't want to do it again, but something in me just isn't happy. Any advice?