Hello, If it is okay i'd like to keep myself anonymous for this post as what I am about to discuss is quite frankly very uncomfortable for me. Now I will not be going into too much depth about my own life unless someone wants to contact me privately on something else like leagues (as you could tell from my name) or teamspeak or something.
Lets get started with this, I recently turned 18 about a week ago and upon having my special birthday realized I was now an adult and needed to start to solving some of my personal issues with more confidence if I am ever going to be happy. I live with chronic stress, from everything from my school life to my personal life. I do get picked on semi-often at school, but I think I might be too over emotional because I know its just my friends and they mean no harm. Nonetheless, my stress lately has reached proportions that I no longer thought were possible. I'm an athlete (I run cross country/ track and play soccer), and despite the fact that I try to keep myself in really good shape, I have found myself gaining a bit of weight. I know my diet and I know my training regime and know that there had to be some other reason for this, and it all makes me think its because of how over stressed I get. I also have been finding myself getting sick a lot more often and i have went on long periods of depression. If its worth pointing out I also have a mild form of autism (Aspergers) and I always thought I grew out of it due to how normal I thought I was up until recent.
So as for the reason i'm currently on this site, lets start off with the fact that I am and have been night-time incontinent for the past three years. I have done very well at hiding these issues from my parents or anyone else because i'm self conscious about it and want to live a normal life. As grueling for me as this is to say, It has recently come to my concern that the only way to get my life back in line is to find an outlet to relieve stress and anxiety, and i'm just now realizing that wearing diapers before I go to sleep might be the only way. None of my friends or my parents would suspect me of having these types of feelings, even though I can get a bit emotional at times due to some of my stress-related issues. Since I am now 18 I feel that I need to confront some of these personal issues, perhaps with my parents or perhaps by myself, I do not know yet. I will be going off to college soon and I would be way too uncomfortable wetting myself every other night with no house-hold to feel safe at, which is why I am here.
I will also say this, I, like many of you, have slight sexual desires for this aswell. But I can say the same about sex and I feel the main reason I need to tackle this has much more to do with an outlet to relieve stress and anxiety. Heck, even typing this up has calmed down my nerves so much just because its great to feel I am in an area where I know I could be accepted more easily (such as these forums).
If you guys could give me some input or maybe some future advice I would really appreciate it, I don't want to ruin the rest of my life living in depression knowing it needed to be solved the second this came along. Thanks for all who read to this point and I heavily appreciate knowing I can connect with some people here who might be going through the same issues.
Let me add that, despite some other urges, I do not want to be treated like a baby and what not, I simply just want a way to relax and if that means wearing a diaper then its what I must do to save my personal health. I obviously can't control this nor my night-time incontinence so any advice possible would be heavily appreciated.