so I finally worked up the courage to talk to my therapist about it, I started by saying I had something that I've been wanting to talk about but i was kind of embarrassed about it. She asked what it was so i asked her if shes ever heard of a adult baby, she looked kind of confused so i told her i like to regress to a younger age to about 2 or 3 and she asked what i meant by regress? I told her i like to do things a 2 or 3 year old would do and that i have stuffed animals, blanket, a pacifier and that i have a room set aside for this with toys like blocks, coloring books and all.
I told her i like to do it because it comforts me and lets me escape the stress of things temporarily and that i enjoy doing it. I made sure i told her i don't want to get rid of it i just thought it was something that might be of importance in some way. i didn't get into the diapers part yet because i thought i already brought up a lot of stuff for her to take in at once.
I apologized for bringing up so much at once but she assured me that it was ok she was really nice about it, she asked about my childhood when i was around 2 or 3 and i told her i was left alone at the babysitters most of the time and i spent the night a lot, i was the only kid there. I spent a lot of days/nights crying because i was confused and didn't know the reason why i was always there.
She thinks this is what might of caused it and iv always thought the same thing.
She said she wants to do some research into it so she can better understand it, she said she wants to try to find a way to work it into therapy.
I told her about the understanding infantilism web site, she also wants me to try to remember what thoughts are going through my head when im regressing so i can tell her.
I feel so much better now that i got the hard part over with.