So the wife is gone for a month, and we talked in the airport about me exploring the AB side of things. She's totally cool, etc etc etc. But...I can't get into the "head space". I'm a firm believer that this lifestyle...for me, a DL...isn't a choice, but who I am. After doing, and failing at, the AB side of things, I am even more firm in my assumptions. I want the baby side...but I feel a bit stupid. I mean, I had my bottle, my binkie and my onsie, and tried to get in the mode, but it didn't work! This, to me, is proof positive being AB or DL is NOT a choice. Because, I tried to choose, and came up empty. If there was a pill I could take to make me AB, I'd take it. Anywho, for those having doubts and who trust a stranger...enjoy it. Its not your fault, you didnt choose it, nothing can change it, so revel in it. I just wish I could. Any thoughts or suggestions on how I can be...a baby? I want it so bad!