I've been thinking about checking myself in for a while now due to my depression and suicidal thoughts are not seeming to go away and might have gotten worse since I started getting help over 3 months ago. Three weeks ago I had full intentions of committing suicide until my cousin randomly called me and talked me out of it. My therapist found out but not until week after it when I saw her, so she couldn't really force me to go because by then I was calm (still seemed like she was pretty angry with me, but I guess that's to be expected).
Anyway the thoughts are still happening and it seems like when when I start getting deppresed it gets really bad really fast. I only talk to a therapist for less then 2 hrs total a month (she's always late so she cuts my appointment short to not be late for the next person. Its not really fair in my opinion.) All they want to do is throw percriptions at me.
I'm hopeing that if I voluntarily check myself in it would help speed up my chances of getting better sooner.
I've read that some places will let you bring certain things from home like a pillow,stuffed animal,a blanket, a book, possibly a MP3 player. Basicly stuff that would keep you comfortable and stuff you might need as long as you cant hurt yourself with it or anyone else.
Im kinda scared because I don't know what to expect but I know it would most likely get me better treatment and faster results then to keep dealing with things the way they have been going. My mother even suggested this to me before i even told her I was thinking about the same thing.
Does anyone have any advice or anything they can say about this?
Any input is greatly appreciated