Okay so I've tried looking for similar threads, couldn't quite find one that hit the mark, so I'll just make one.
So recently I've been experiencing a lot of urges, which is really rare for me. I have plenty of diapers, and plenty of alone time, so I can pretty much wear whenever I want at home - given, I don't live alone so that is limited to the confines of my room, which is admittedly pretty small.
It's not just the urge to wear, though there is plenty of that. Lately, I really want to just be able to act more kiddish, dress in more of that style (Cartoon prints, brighter colors, more traditionally kiddish clothes like overalls, etc), without going too overboard of course, and most of all, without shoving it in anyone's face, I would really like to wear 24/7. I'd love to be able to go other places and feel carefree instead of confined when I wear, and not so bottled up in my room, and honestly a little bit of paranoia. This isn't about subjecting people to my fetish (I have a bit of one, but not as much as I am just genuinely a Little, wanting to feel little) and it's not about the desire to be getting reactions, because I could care less how strangers react, and I'd think I wouldn't want to be too obvious about it anyway. Really, I just want to be able to shake this caged feeling.
But... I really can't even imagine being able to do so in my current situation. I don't want to even begin to let my parents in on this, so I can't do it at home. And since I work with colleagues of my parents, I can't do it at work either. Finally, since this is not such a big town I live in, I can't even go out places without expecting to encounter someone I regularly deal with. Basically I feel like in order to do something like express my little side in public, I would need to move far away, basically losing all contact with my family and friends. Which is not something I consider worth sacrificing.
So yeah, my mind's buzzing with ways to let it out without losing so much. I keep getting the urge to travel, to consider maybe not living in my home town when I leave my parents again, to attend cons or finally reach out to friends. Basically I feel willing to do pretty much anything short of coming out about it to my family, but I'm struggling to see situations that would be worth it.
So here's my question, for non-IC 24/7'ers and people who live ABDL as a lifestyle, since I know there are a few:
How did you go from hiding it to being so open? How do you make the transition from only wearing in privacy to 24/7? How do you avoid losing your family, or your friends?