I'm convinced that i am a complete and utter nutcase. I'm so screwed up and weird, i just have no clue why i am so screwed up in the head. as most of you know, i have a thread going on about one of my incidents where i did some questionable things and it is still making me have guilt, in fact i have just moped around the last couple of days trying to figure out what is wrong with me. basically, i have come to terms that i am a nonsexual sissyfur, and I'm ok with that, what I'm no ok with is that i might be getting turned on by spanking. basically, earlier today i was roleplaying, and i playfully spanked my rear, then i got hard and had to stop the roleplay. basically, I'm looking for answers and a way to implement spanking into my roleplay without being inherently sexual. i am going to a goodwill this weekend maybe, and I'm just trying to come to terms completely with my sissyfurness so i could buy myself some sissyfur clothes, i got $40.00 from cleaning some dudes gutter. I'm just so confused, am i crazy.