this is really hard to say, so bear with me. basically about 45 minutes ago, i was roleplaying and something just happened. it was the heat of the moment and i just... jerked off. its disgusting, i know im screwed up, i just feel so guilty that i let it get to that "point". i felt awful, i still feel awful, i have many questions i just dont know what to do, why why why. am i sick, how do i prevent this from happening in the future, why me .