Everyone here says it's pointless to fight and ignore this side of us, but I am just curious why y'all say that? Is it giving up? And how do you know that no one has never been able to get rid of these desires? I tend to be rebellious and I refuse to give in. I want to have a normal relationship with my future spouse, but no matter what these desires still persist.
The interesting thing is that I spent a week in the poorest part of a foreign country and had no ac, TV, or internet. I had zero, I repeat zero, diaper or ab desires while there, but as soon as I got back home and had internet, they came right back. These desires can't be a part of me because in the country I was in, it is impossible to act on those desires and be an abdl. I now just can't see how it is a piece of me.
Sorry that this is long, I use adisc as my journal with my abdl desires. Helps me gain perspective.