So I thought id share this, and forgive any errors as I'm on my slow tablet.
I thought my eldest, 17, knew about my diapers. So, I was line drying my Baby Pants trainers and a pullup diaper from kins. Along with a shirt of his. Anyway, he goes to get his shirt, and asks me if the diapers on the line are mine. I said, Yup!
He proceeds to say, Thats fucking weird and disgusting.
Him. Because you deficate in them.
Me. No I dont....technically true as I dont mess.
Him. Still, if you dont need them, it's sick.
Me. So your generation is cool with lgbtq?
Him. Ya, we don't agree with bashing people because of their orientation.
Me. Well, diapers are part of my sexuality. Sometimes I need them to feel normal.
So in the car...the wife and he were going to the city, Jake asked his mom how his dad could be so fucked up. She explained that sexuality might be imprinted on a person in may ways. He asked if it was a fetish, and wife said Totally.
On the way home 6 hrs later, he said he felt horrible for whathe saidto me, and realized he attacked my sexuality. Headmited it wasnt cool, and that he behaved like a "total dick. I'm embarrassed for myself."
So, I guess openess works even if it sucks at times. We alwaystalk about sex as a family, and about discrimination, drugs, ect. He's cool, I'm cool, and my diapers are drying on the lineas I type.
I thought he knew. Maybe he did and was confused. But I did react defensively. That's whar can happen with shame. So, itsucked worse than any other interaction with him...I adoptedhim at 11...but it ended in understanding. I was cevistated, but now feel liberated. Thanks for letting me vent.