I have almost always had a quiet appreciation for diapers and a secret longing to be diapered myself, but I have always managed to push this aside and lie to myself about it due to shame and self-disgust.
Well, for some reason the urge increased randomly and suddenly this week to the point where I found myself looking at pictures and videos online and looking up places I could order some diapers. Realizing that there is a supermarket in my city that sells adult diapers and also offers self-service, I found myself in the store yesterday. I was very nervous, especially as the packet of diapers was a lot heavier/bulkier/more awkward than I was expecting! Anyway, I made it out of there alive with my pack of 14 Tena Stretch Super disposables. I chose them because they were the only type with those plastic sticky tabs. The pull-ups just don't interest me as much aesthetically- the tabs are a major part of the appeal for me!
I put my first ever diaper on last night. Managed to break it so had to move on to another! I am already becoming a pro in putting them now on so no worries about breakage again. I was really just curious and thought that 14 diapers was a lot. Hmmmm! I'm already trying to work out when I might need to focus on getting my second source. I was instantly enamoured with my new diapers and felt so much relief in finally being able to wear them. (Although still ashamed, annoyed, and embarrassed that this is apparently my fetish.)
I wasn't intending on actually 'using' the diapers- I thought just sitting in them and wearing them to bed would be lovely enough for me. However, predictably, within the first hour I found myself drinking a lot of water and I eventually did wet the diaper. I am amazed at how much liquid those things can hold! I was so nervous about leakages but now I already feel quite confident heavily wetting my diapers, at least while I am at home.
The 'I'll just wear it overnight' thing instantly went out the window as well and I ended up taking another diaper to work with me, which I wore and used during the afternoon. Now on my second evening in diapers I am sat here in one which kind of feels like it is about to burst. I think I'll calm down and use the diapers much less eventually, but right now I am just over-excited about having them in my life after all these years of denial.
Wow, this was a long short story!
Would be great to get to know some of you, and I'd especially love to meet other women who are into this- it seems like such a 'male' urge based on what is available on the internet.