Just joined the site to do some research about our common interest and hopefully come to terms with a few things myself.
Short version of the story is I had an emotionally traumatic experience as an infant (yes, my earliest memories go back to when I was 8 months old). I wasn't abused, nor was it anything intentional or malicious, but it left me imprinted me with this affinity for diapers. However, I repressed this feeling my entire life which caused me constant inner turmoil. Now, 29 years old and married, I'm really tired of hating myself for something I cannot make go away. I recently told my wife about these feelings I have regarding diapers, and to what extent I do and do not want to experience them. While she was initially upset, things are better. Once we worked through the strong emotions and I recounted my experiences, she really began to understand and is trying to be sympathetic.
We've both agreed to seek council with a highly-experienced, well-recommended sex therapist whom is local to us. We both have some issues beyond this and I'm thankful we are still very much in love and taking steps toward being happier with ourselves, and each other.
Thanks for listening, and for all being yourselves.